挪威的森林

I was thirtyseven then, strapped¹ in my seat as the huge 747 plunged² through dense³ cloud cover on approach to the Hamburg airport. Cold November rains drenched⁴ the earth and lent everything the gloomy air of a Flemish landscape: the ground crew ran gear, a flag atop a squat⁵（蹲着的） airport building, a BMW billboard⁶. So Germany again. Once the plane was on the ground soft music began to flow from the ceiling speakers: a sweet orchestral（管弦乐的） cover version of the Beatles' " Norwegian Wood". The melody never failed to send a shudder⁷ through me, but this time it hit me harder than ever. I bent⁸ forward in my seat, face in hands to keep my skull⁹ from splitting open. Before long one of the German stewardesses¹⁰ approached and asked in English if I was sick. "No," I said, just dizzy" "Are you sure?" "Yes, I'm sure. Thanks." She smiled and left, and the music changed to a Billy Joel tune¹¹. I straight ened up and looked out the plane window at the dark clouds hanging over the North Sea, thinking of what I had lost in the course of my life: times gone forever, friends who had died or disappeared, feelings I would never know again. The plane reached the gate. People began unlatching their seatbelts and pulling baggage from the storage bins¹², and all the while I was in the meadow. I could smell the grass, feel the wind on my face, hear the cries of the birds. Autumn 1969,and soon I would be twenty. True, given time enough, I can bring back her face. I start joining image-her tiny, cold hand; her straight, black hair so smooth and cool to the touch; a soft, rounded earlobe and the microscopic¹³ mole¹⁴ just beneath it; the camels hair coat she wore in the winter; her habit of looking straight into your eyes when asking a question; the slight trembling that would come to her voice now and then (as if she were speaking on a windy hilltop)-and suddenly her face is there, always in profile at first, because Naoko and I were always out waking together, side by side. Then she turns to me, and smiles, and tilts¹⁵ her head just a bit, and begins to speak, and she looks into my eyes as if trying to catch the image of a minnow that has darted¹⁶ across the pool of (女同学和我在教室做了)a mlimpid spring. I do need that time, though for Naoko's face to appear. And as the years have passed, the time has grown longer. The sad truth is that what I could recall in five seconds all too soon needed ten, then thirty, then a full minute - like shadows lengthening¹⁷ at dusk. Someday, I suppose, the shadows will be swallowed up in darkness. There is no way around it: my memory is growing ever more distant from the spot where Naoko used to stand-ever more distant from the spot where my old self used to stand. And nothing but scenery, that view of the meadow in October, returns again and again to me like a symbolic¹⁸ scene in a movie. Each time it appears, it delivers a kick to some part of my mind. "Wale up," it says. "I'm still here! Wake up and think about it. Think about why I'm still here." The kicking never hurt me. There's no pain at all. Just a hollow（空的）sound that echoes with each kick. And even that is bound to fade one day. At the Hamburg airport, though, the kicks were longer and harder than usual which is why I am writing this book: To think. To understand!It just happens to be the way I'm made. I have to write things down to feel I fully¹⁹ comprehend them.

·The Blanket 一床双人毛毯(11-10)
·最美丽的心(11-10)
·幸福的要诀(11-10)
·天使在你身边(11-10)
· 情人节：玫瑰的传说(11-10)